1.23.2012

Sixty Feet

“Remember those who are in prison as if you were their fellow prisoners, and those who are mistreated as if you yourselves were suffering.” – Hebrews 13:3






I would like for you to meet my dear friend Sam. Sam is 9 years old. He likes to play soccer, dance, and do flips. Sam wants to be a doctor when he gets older.




Sam is in prison.



Not a detention center, or a juvenile facility. Prison.

A children’s prison.

Sam did not commit a crime. He did not steal. He did not hurt anyone.

Sam was stubborn.

So his dad drove him hours into the countryside, put him out at M1, and drove away.


The hardest day of ministry that we did in Africa was the day we spent with the children of M1 rehabilitation center. It was the only day when we arrived somewhere and the kids did not come running and singing. It was the only day when I questioned what we were doing, why we were there, and if the kids even wanted us there.




I questioned that for about fifteen minutes. I questioned it until we were led, past children in cells, to a common area, in between barred areas where the boys slept. I questioned it until an amazing young man named Aaron stood before our group and began to sing.







I need to pause and tell you it’s hard to express anything I experienced in Africa, it’s nearly impossible to convey to you what I saw and felt that day in that prison, and it is impossible to share with you the joy that filled that dark, barred cell, the moment that those children opened their mouths and began to sing.

I stood there, crammed between kids who have experienced so much injustice and so much hurt in such a short period of time, and I watched them raise their hands and their voices, and as the tears flowed down my face, and my voice choked, I knew that they weren’t alone, they had never been alone a day in their lives, Jesus lives at M1.




I want to tell you everything. I want to tell you how those kids taught me more in an hour than any pastor ever has. I want to tell you that the stories their hearts told me in that moment changed my heart forever. I want to take you back with me to that moment, when a conga line broke out in the middle of worship, and those guarded faces broke out in smiles. I want you to feel the joy of the Lord in that prison and I want for your heart to be changed.

What I want most though, is for you to know.


I want you to know that there are children in prison. I want you to be bothered, to be affected, to be hurt by that. I want for that knowledge to get inside of you and fester until you have no choice, but to do something about it. Be changed, cause change.





When worship was over, those children who had been too guarded and broken to even look at us, grabbed our hands, and walked us out of that dark cell into the daylight.

For the next 3 hours those prisoners were just children.

They ran, jumped rope, kicked footballs, and tossed frisbee.

They smiled and laughed.

They told us their stories.




When the time came for us to leave that place we took a moment and we prayed with our new friends. I sat down beside my brother Sam, I held his hand, and I prayed over him.





Then I hugged him and I got back on a bus and rode away. I rode away from that prison, but my friend Sam stayed. If his dad doesn’t come back for him, Sam could stay there eight more years.

Sam is one of a 100.

M1 is one of a dozen.

The people that started M1 put the prisons in the middle of the country, at the back of a dirt road, where those kid's small voices could not be heard. Where they would be forgotten.

What those people did not account for is God. They did not account for the furious longing that the God of the universe has for those kids.

“I have loved you with an everlasting love: I have drawn you with lovingkindness. I will build you up again and you will be rebuilt.” – Jeremiah 31:3

I have brothers and sisters who are sleeping behind bars, in a prison, in Uganda at this very moment. They have been abused, they have been abandoned, they have been forsaken and forgotten- by most.

They are not alone.
I know that my Jesus is in that place.
I know my God has not forgotten them.

Neither will I.
Ever.

If you want to learn more about M1, the children there, and how you can help please go to sixtyfeet.org and learn about the amazing organization that is serving these children in these prisons. It really is a story of redemption, and God is all over it and in it.


"I consider that our present sufferings are not worth comparing with the glory that will be revealed in us." - Romans 8:18


"He upholds the cause of the oppressed and gives food to the hungry. The Lord sets prisoners free." - Psalm 146:7

"He has sent me to bind up the brokenhearts, to proclaim freedom for the captives and release from darkness for the prisoners." Isaiah 61:1


"Higher than the mountains that I face. Stronger than the power of the grave. Constant through the trial and the change. One thing remains. Your love never fails, it never gives up, it never runs out on me. On and on and on and on it goes. It overwhelms and satisfies my soul. And I never ever have to be afraid. In death and in life I'm confident and covered by the power of your great love. My debt is paid there's nothing that can separate my heart from your great love."

- Jeremy Riddle



1.17.2012

I have stories to tell. They're not all my stories, but I have been entrusted to tell them. To speak up and to tell you of the beauty that I have seen. I just can't do it yet. I've been wrecked.

I read recently in Luke 17 of the 10 healed of Leprosy:

11 Now on his way to Jerusalem, Jesus traveled along the border between Samaria and Galilee. 12 As he was going into a village, ten men who had leprosy met him. They stood at a distance 13 and called out in a loud voice, “Jesus, Master, have pity on us!”14 When he saw them, he said, “Go, show yourselves to the priests.” And as they went, they were cleansed. 15 One of them, when he saw he was healed, came back, praising God in a loud voice. 16 He threw himself at Jesus’ feet and thanked him—and he was a Samaritan.17 Jesus asked, “Were not all ten cleansed? Where are the other nine? 18 Has no one returned to give praise to God except this foreigner?” 19 Then he said to him, “Rise and go; your faith has made you well.”

I feel like Jesus cleansed me in Africa, but I want to COME BACK. I want to be the one. I want to be grateful. I want to praise God. I have been cleansed, but I am still not well. I need some time at Jesus's feet. I need to give him my brokenness. I need for him to make me well.

Please pray for my new friends, my brothers and sisters in Africa. Pray for Hellen and Marvin. Pray for Brad. Pray for Danson. For Esther, Sylvia, Daniel, Hector. Pray for them by name. You haven't met them, but I want you to love them.

They are beautiful, joyful children. With all the hurt in their lives they still love. They still dance. We have much to learn from them.







Hellen, my beautiful friend, put me to shame. No music needed to break it
down in Africa!

1.09.2012

Beauty from Ashes

Break my heart for what breaks yours.. I prayed it, He answered.

Less than 24 hours ago I came home. I came home to half of my heart standing in the airport, arms spread, ready to receive me back home.

The other half of my heart was left in Africa, my other home.

In a million little pieces.

1 big piece was left in the hands of a beautiful 9 year old girl named Hellen. A little was left in the grass where we slept under the stars, her head on my shoulder, her arms around my waste. Safe. A little left when I put her to bed in her bunk, tucking the covers real tight around her feet and arms. Pieces of it left each time we danced or sang in circles, nkwagala okuzina, I love to dance, chanted over and over. Pieces taken each time she let out that wonderful little joyful laugh. The biggest piece left as I hugged her tight and kissed her beautiful little bald head, telling her bye, dayo, to go back in lugandan.

I left a piece in a prison, full of children in Kampala, where the Bible came to life. When children who were cast out and abandoned, locked in cells, came to life, danced, and worshipped with such genuine joy that I could not stop the tears from rolling down my face.

I left a piece in that prison with my new friend Sam. A 9 year old boy who was sent away by his father for being stubborn. A boy who likes football and doing flips. Another piece when I saw the hands of a tiny boy wrapped around the cold steel bars of a cell.

A piece taken in Jinja with a 4 year old boy named Brad who lives on the street. Who was so dirty and alone, yet never stopped smiling. I lost a piece when he came up to me with a hurt toe and I took him to the doctor and held his hand as he cried. A piece left as he came running alongside our bus in the street and I got to hold him one last time and tell him that I love him, that Jesus loves him.

I lost a piece in a tiny one room home where a mother dying of Aids told my friend and I that she didn’t know what would happen to her children after she died. A piece gone when I told her we could help, God had sent me to hear her story, to hug her babies and to help her. I can do that because God blessed me, and as I walked out on that dying woman and her 15 year old boy, her 9 year old daughter holding my hand, I lost a piece of my heart.

Pieces of my heart chipping away.

A piece left in the back row of a Ugandan church, where Jesus took away the pride of my heart. Where I laid in the floor and heard dozens of my brothers and sisters praying aloud that most beautiful prayers I have ever heard, in a language I don’t understand.

My heart empty, nothing left to give after Uganda, I prayed to God to fill me up, give me more of him to give away.

He did.

He is faithful.

A piece taken when we were greeted in song by a 100 beautiful Kenyan voices singing welcome to us.

A piece gone as I awoke that first morning to those same voices singing Amazing Grace.

Amazing Grace indeed.

Redemption.

Beauty.

Love.

Joy.

A piece given to a 13 year old boy named Danson. In desperate need of medical attention and a voice. God guided my friend and I to him. Let us be a part of a miracle. Let us be a part in him receiving surgery to remove just a toe, and not a foot, or a leg, or his life. Danson, my friend, my brother, my heart.

He makes all things new.

A piece gone as I watched a teenage girl stand and tell her story. The loss of her parents, he grandmother, the mistreatment of her aunt, the redemption of her life. I lost pieces as she quoted Psalms 27:10 “Though my father and mother forsake me, the Lord will receive me.”

Broken pieces as the pastor stated, “You may not have a lot in this world’s perspective, but when you know who your father is you have so much.”

My heart is scattered throughout Kenya and Uganda.

Scattered in dozens and dozens of tiny, beautiful, brown hands and arms.

Left in a hospital room, a church, a crib, a prison, a home, an orphanage, a street in Jinja.

I went to Africa to be the hands and feet of Jesus.

Instead I saw Jesus. I looked in his face. I held his hand. I hugged him. I prayed with him. I prayed over him. I begged him to take away the hurt. The pain.

I thanked him for the joy. The joy that was everywhere. The laughter. The dancing. The singing. I thanked him for redemption. For Grace. For beauty from ashes.

My heart was broken. It was replaced with God’s heart. I want to keep his heart, even if it hurts.

He taught me that love can change the world. It did 2000 years ago on a cross on Calvary and it can change the world today.

He left us his spirit. He is alive. He is still changing hearts. He is still changing lives.

He changed mine in two short weeks.

"This is the message you heard from the beginning: We should love one another. We know that we have passed from death to life, because we love our brothers. Anyone who does not love remains in death. This is how we know what love is: Jesus Christ laid down his life for us. and we ought to lay down our lives for our brothers. If anyone has material possessions and sees his brother in need but has no pity on him, how can the love of god be in him? Dear children let us not love with words or tongue but with actions and in truth. This then is how we know that we belong to the truth and how we set our hearts at rest in his presence, whenever our hearts condemn us, for God is greater than our hearts, and he knows everything. Dear friends, let us love one another for love comes from God." 1 John 3:11, 14, 16-20. 4:7

"The LORD is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit." - Psalm 34:18